There are three weeks left until I graduate and I am feeling the stress that comes with being a soon-to-be graduate. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about my future and about my life after college. Looking for a job has become a job in itself. It sucks to know that you’ve spent four years in college and you’re expected to have some type of plan for after you leave, but you realize you don’t have one. I do have some opportunities available to me, but they’re not paying jobs.
I have been thinking about signing up for the National Guard. That would be something that would keep me occupied while I’m home. I tried to join after my freshman year, but I think it’ll be better for me now since I’m older and a little more mature.
Life just seems to be moving so fast and it’s almost like I’m getting left behind. I look around at the people I know and they’re all either starting families, moving to new places or landing new jobs and I’m still here. It makes me feel like a failure at times, like I wasted part of my life. I hate feeling like this, especially since I’m going to be graduating soon. I’m sure other graduates have felt this way, but I don’t know how to cope with it.
It gets overwhelming at times. Life seems so easy, yet hard at the same time. I want to be successful in life and I know it’s going to take some time to get to where I want to be. A time machine to the future would come in handy right now. Just skip ahead to a better life and a less stressed out me. But that only exists in the movies. I’m talking about you, Marty!
I didn’t draft this post out so I hope you all don’t mind if my thoughts jump all over the place. That’s just how my brain works at times, especially when I’m trying to write about what it is I’m feeling and thinking.
I hope you all are having great weekends!
“Count your joys instead of your woes. Count your friends instead of your foes.”
- Irish Proverb
Just wanted to update you all with my new haircut. Hope you all enjoy your weekend!
But I’m feeling 22!
I had to play that Taylor Swift song since I turned 22 today. I completely forgot to update my blog with that information. I had a pretty eventful day so that’s to blame. I went out to lunch at Olive Garden with my grandparents when they came down earlier. They dropped off my birthday cake and some cards as well. I appreciate the fact that they’ve made trips down here to my college on my past birthdays. They could have easily just sent their cards in the mail and made a phone call to me, but they took the time out of their day to come down and visit me. After they left, I headed to the art gallery at my college for the reception and meet & greet for artist Terry Dixon. I’ll make a separate post about that visit and include the photos I took. What I can tell you guys about his exhibit is that it is very personal to him. Dixon’s work reminds me of Jean-Michel Basquiat’s work, and I admire Basquiat’s work as well. I actually got a chance to speak with Dixon and he gave me some great advice which I’ll also include in the other post.
I then had a chance to see director and producer Lee Daniels in person. He spoke at my college tonight and everyone in attendance loved him. He spoke very openly about his childhood and the struggles he had to overcome to get to where he is now. I was able to get photos of him and with him. I originally planned on attending so I could write an article about him for my college’s newspaper (Yes, I’m working with the paper once again) and I’m very happy I went. I enjoyed listening to the life stories he told everyone. He also has a great sense of humor and is not afraid to throw out a cuss word or two or three. I plan on watching the movies he’s produced or directed, including the ones I’ve already seen.
Lee Daniels and I after he spoke at DSU.
I’m happy I was able to enjoy my birthday but it hasn’t hit me yet that I’m not 21 anymore. I’m still going to be carded at bars and liquor stores since people still think I’m 16 or 18, lol. Overall, my birthday was a good one and I’m happy I got to spend it with family and with two talented people.
Hope you all are having good days (or nights) as well!
“A mediocre person tells. A good person explains. A superior person demonstrates. A great person inspires others to see for themselves.”
- Harvey Mackay
Hello everybody! Sorry for not updating my blog in awhile, I’ve just been busy with homework and papers and my internship. I’m currently doing assignments for my internship from my laptop which is much easier for me to do. I would like to work at my internship site, but there have been some changes made in my class schedule that do not allow me to commute like I would have before.
I am also working on my senior capstone and I am hoping that my proposal (which is due next week) isn’t lacking anything. I’m working on it this week, writing everything up. I have a lot of information to use for my paper so all I have to do is place everything in their correct sections, add the correct citations and I’m done. I’ve found that I have a hard time writing papers when they turn out to be easy to do. It’s hard to explain but it’s true. I made it easier for myself with this paper since I divided each section up and assigned different days of the week for me to write each section. I have four other sections to write and I plan to be done on Saturday. Sunday will be the designated proofread and edit day in case I forget to review it before I print it out.
I am expected to come up with a product which is normally a website for convergence journalism students, but I asked if I could do a business plan for the bookstore I want to own one day and my idea was accepted. I researched how to do business plans and they seem challenging but fun. It’ll be fun for me because I’ll be learning all of the aspects of creating my own business plan. I still haven’t come up with a secure name for my bookstore but I do have two or three names that I thought of that might work. I’m hoping that I can use the finished plan in the future, I might just have to change or add things to it when the time comes to actually use it.
Aside from work and school, I’m pretty excited to be turning 22 next month. I don’t even feel like I should be this old yet. I know 22 is far from 99, but I’m not the teenager I used to be. I still don’t feel like an adult either so I’m kind of stuck in the in-between. Not a teenager anymore but not quite an adult. I just hope I get to enjoy my birthday as well as some birthday cake!
I hope as is well with my followers and just know that I haven’t forgotten about anyone!