A Spring Day in Montana

Yesterday was such a great day, especially weather-wise.  I was up early in the morning volunteering at a Mother’s Day 5k race that was in support of a local non-profit organization here in Bozeman, MT.  Since I officially live here now (as of late March/early April), I decided I want to put myself out there and become a part of my new community.  The city is home to Montana State University and is very diverse because of that.  There are also plenty of coffee/tea shops, local restaurants/stores, and vibrant atmospheres among the nightlife.  It is a small city, but it is full of fun and friendly locals.

Below are two photos I took yesterday along my walk home after the race.  They were taken at the Bozeman Pond which is a convenient 20-minute walk to/from my house.  I just love the reflections that appear in both photos.

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Camping by the Lake

This past weekend I went on an impromptu camping trip with some of my co-workers.  We camped at a site by Cliff & Wade Lake here in Montana, which is close to West Yellowstone.

Our weekend was full of burgers, music, and sitting around the campfire (which we burned late into the night).

While I was there, I walked down to the lake with one of my fellow coworkers and took the following two photos.  I wanted to try out the panorama option on my phone since I hadn’t used it yet.  I just did some sharpness touchups and added to the color to make everything pop!

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Enjoy your Monday, folks!

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A Late Brunch

I woke up this afternoon in a hungry state.  I thought about the groceries I bought yesterday & decided to make myself breakfast, or brunch, with some of the items I had purchased.  I have to say, this meal satisfied me completely!

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My brunch consisted of blueberry waffles with cinnamon, turkey bacon, cheese eggs, & a polish Kielbasa sausage.  Looks tasty to me (it tasted even better!).

Now it’s time to get back to my laundry tasks for the day.  Have a good Sunday!

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Conceal

There is not much to be said about fear.  It can consume you, make you stronger, or both.  This is how it usually goes with me.  I allow it to seep into my mind and take its rightful place.  My dreams and daydreams alike both suffer from it residence there.  It is like a bug, a mosquito or ant, that gnaws away at your skin until you are forced to take notice of it.  When you do, the itching and irritation seems to get worse and worse as you give in to the scratching that occurs from it.

What I am getting at is when you scratch at a bug bite, it sends temporary relief throughout your system that makes you believe that it is okay and that it is going to stop soon.  But that is never the case.  Either you live it out and let the bite run its course until it disappears.  Or, you soothe yourself by adding lotions, oils, or other concoctions that you believe in onto your skin.  It is still there.  It is not completely gone.  That is what I do with fear.

I either caress it or ignore it.

I run from it.

I hide it.

 I conceal it.

But none of this helps.  I keep fear with me because sometimes I am weak and cannot bear to face it.  I hold on to it because it lets me know that I am alive and that I am scared of the world that I live in.  I let it consume me because I feel like I have no other option.

Fear makes me feel alive.  It helps me with knowing that I am a human.  I can feel this intimidating emotion and still live to see another day.  I say that it lives in my mind because it does.  Day in and day out.  Fear lives inside of me.  It helps me with my awareness in life.  I am more alert of my surroundings, of those I interact with, of strangers I pass on a daily basis.

Fear gives me life.  I thrive on it at times.  Other-times, it strikes in my heart.  It makes me paranoid or overly cautious.  There are different types of fear that I have experienced.  One being fear of living because of the negative things that happen in our lives.  Others being afraid of being a failure, growing old, dying alone, dying young, losing someone close to me, the list can go on.  I am sure one of you reading this can relate to one of these last fears listed.  It is a part of being a human.  We feel these things in our everyday lives.  They are natural feelings.

To end my rambling thoughts, I will say this.  If I lived my life without fear, I would still be the same person I am today.  Yes, I let it consume me, but I am stronger because of it.

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*This is a response to this week’s Dungeon Prompt: Fear, how do you use it?.  Sorry for my ramblings, folks!

Recovery: Self-Hate

There she stands

With her sunken, dark brown eyes,

That have been reddened

By the tears of her own words

The words spoken evilly about herself

Others admire her

For her grace, diligence, intelligence

She only sees unworthiness and hate

Unworthy of being beautiful

Or having a steady relationship

Hate, which stems from her blood

Her lineage, who accuses her

Of being anything but good or smart

The belittling words of others

Have settled into her own mouth

Cutting deeply into her skin.

As she speaks these lies,

Her tongue swells, knowing her real truths

The ones that depict her in a positive light

She is full of grace, diligence, and intelligence

As she stands

With her dried, dark brown eyes,

She realizes the true beauty that she is

That she has finally become

Lending time to listen to her own truths

And speak them into existence

Has led her on a road to recovery

To a better life, to a better her.

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*This poem is in response to this week’s Dungeon Prompt: I Am A Recovering…

Thankful Thursday: Tea, I Love Thee!

As the title shows, I indeed have a love-love relationship with tea.  Earl Grey is my choice as of now, has been for the past 3 years or so.  I picked it up one day, wanting to try a new flavor, and haven’t put it down since.  This post is all about being thankful and telling others what you are thankful for.  So, here are a few things that made my list for today.

Tea, Earl Grey to be exact

Marathons of I-cannot-change-the-channel shows such as Law & Order.

Reruns of Seinfeld & Frasier

My friends who haven’t given up on me yet

My family members who actually show that they care

All of the new friends that I made this summer

For still being alive to see another day

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Water along the Way

This past September, a few co-workers and I took our days off to go on a hiking trip.  A rim-to-rim trip to be exact.  This was my first time going on a hike this long ( it took us a full day!), but I enjoyed all of the views along the way.  The water that flowed into little streams, waterfalls, and rivers made the trip much more enjoyable.

Since we lived on the North Rim of the Grand Canyon, we headed down on our side of the canyon and hiked back up on the South Rim’s side, approximately 24 miles total!

The photos below are ones I took of the different water views along our hike.  Just to our luck, we found a hidden beach on the last half of our journey.  It made for a great resting spot alongside the Colorado River.

I would definitely recommend this hike to anyone out there who is an avid hiker, or a beginner like myself.

Enjoy!

Ribbon Falls.

Ribbon Falls.

Waterfall selfie.

Waterfall selfie.

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The bridge we used to cross the Colorado River.

The bridge we used to cross the Colorado River.

A paradise for hikers stuck in the sun.

A paradise for hikers stuck in the sun.

A Colorado River-Beach combo.

A Colorado River-Beach combo.

Taking a break from hiking to rest and cool off.

Taking a break from hiking to rest and cool off.

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Goodbye Arizona

Sorry I haven’t posted on here in awhile. The last few weeks at work kept me busy and being home has made me lazy again!  Not sure if you guys know, but I celebrated my 23rd birthday two weekends ago.  The best part was celebrating my birthday and the end of the work season with some of my co-workers in Las Vegas.  It was fun, expensive, but worth it.

I signed on to work at the Grand Canyon again for next summer so I’m (im)patiently waiting for May to get here.  Until then, I’m filling out applications and doing interviews for seasonal work to keep me busy.

I’ll leave you all with some photos of my birthday weekend for now.

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